Sort of sounds like 27 Dresses...
Good thing there is no wedding in this discussion, unless of course after these 27 grueling days I meet my handsome, rich French sugar-daddy and decide to stay in France. Yep, you heard it. 27 days until I leave for France. And sadly, only one day until I age another number. Yuck.
My head is spinning! How can this have come so quickly, both the age and this trip??? There is far too much to do before I leave...2 shows, strike, 2 concerts, end of season choir part, complete teaching of 3.5 classes, complete grading for said 3.5 classes, host large family groups for a weekend, celebrate a retirement with evening recognition and open house, student directed one-acts, the theatre awards banquet...not to mention the practical things like oh, PACKING, getting a hair cut, learning the music... Then, I think about a new job description, new boss, etc. coming this summer. No wonder I am overwhelmed, over-wrought, stressed, panicked.
We have all experienced times like this. When the tasks to do and the time to do them simply do not match up well. It's like running out of hot fudge and still having ice cream left! You can't just leave the ice cream uneaten, and to eat it without the hot fudge is just not as good. We have also faced times of change when you have no idea how the life changes will effect you but you must face them head-on.
So, what do we do? Some of us hide; seeking solace in quietness to trudge through the tasks ahead. Some of us come out of hiding; we ignore the lists and tasks, spending time releasing the stress of responsibilities. Some of us plan, creating strategic approaches to tackling each task systematically and plan for the changes coming. Some of us, and this is usually my approach, carry all our burdens with us from place to place hoping for that magical 5 minutes to get something done. Then, when those 5 minutes come we fill them with other things...people watching, inane conversation, blogging... :) And we carry our fear and trepidation of the coming changes around with us like a dark cloud of impending doom.
The attitude adjustment required here is sometimes HUGE and daunting. Sometimes I can do it but more than likely, I cannot. Again, I must give up control and say "God, I fail at this. Fill me with your spirit so I can respond as you would have me in this situation, instead of leading my response with my emotions." I guess life is all about giving up control; of ceding to God and allowing His will to be done in us. As my friend Pastor Jeff may call it after today's chapel, I am in the midst of a "divine delay," waiting on God to do His will...in His time.
Well, this has been an interesting ramble. I try not to be this unfocused but possibly there is a greater good at work here. So, glean from it what you will and maybe next time I will be more coherent! :) Besides, I am going to France in 27 days...I'm allowed to be a bit scattered, right?
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