Why do we put our needs last?
Why is it okay to run ourselves ragged taking care of others and passively allow others to ignore our own needs?
Why do we take it upon ourselves to "fix" relationships? To pave the way for others? To accommodate? All the while letting others damage us, make our own lives more challenging...??
Why is it okay for me to reach out to you, accommodate you, change myself for you, work to help you...while you simply sit by and accept without reaching back or recognizing that healthy relationships take the effort of two people.
Why is it okay for me to take care of you while no one, not even me, takes care of me?
If I am the temple of the Lord, I need care too. Temples, like all houses where good things are kept, need care and upkeep. There seems to come a point where even I do not have the time and energy to clean out the clutter inside so I can be healthy. I can work very hard for everyone else's good but never my own and no one but me seems to care. (yes, I know this is a fallacy but roll with my mood please, before coming down on me...Debbie!!! :) ) So, I must care for others to the negation of myself or so this life seems some days.
Why do we do this to ourselves? What made this patter OKAY?
Frankly, I hate it. But now I have to go grocery shopping and do the laundry and the yard work so...I guess my mental and spiritual state will be but on hold for "a while" again...
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