Did God Lie to Me?

Just thinking that makes me a bit sick as I have never questioned that before but I think God and I are in complete disagreement on something and either He lied or I have misinterpreted my own heart for so long that I no longer know what is truth and what is human selfishness.

By now you are wondering to what I am referring to? Let me 'splain...

Psalm 37: 4-5 reads:
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this.

Psalm 37 is all about God's providence, His care for his faithful followers. Now, I am no saint and I am far from perfect. I hate having to toot my own horn here but I have tried, all my life, to live according to His will; to use the talents and guidance He has granted me in order to know Him better and serve His people as he would have me. I know I have failed, time and time again. I know my sins and shortcomings. Trust me, I am well aware of what a horrible person I am, in my sin.

BUT...I live in Grace! I live in forgiveness! I live as a cherished child of God, reveling in the salvation won for me. I am blessed and forgiven and loved...

...so why, when there is but one desire in my heart, am I alone?

I continue in patience, wondering what is next but all relationships seem to return to me, alone, me and God...I spent my early years wondering what was wrong with me that I was alone. I was certain it was me, my weight, my looks, my bold personality...the list of "bad things" about me could go on and on. Then, I was certain God had some immense plan for my life that would be best served if I was unattached. So, I plod on and I wait for this "big plan" to come into action. Well, I am now over 40. My life is around the half-way mark and I an more alone that before, I don't see my life changing much from what it is now. Where is the plan? Where is the big move that justifies this overwhelming loneliness.

The Psalm begins with "Delight yourself in the Lord." What does this mean? Am I doing it "wrong?" The second statement is "and He will give you the desires of your heart." I have known, since I was a child, that I wanted to be a wife and mother; a career was never in my plans. It has happened by default because no spouse has ever appeared. The desire of my heart has always been to know my God better and to build a life with a God-fearing, loving man who wanted to share the ups and downs of life with me. Obviously this has not happened.

So...did God lie to me? Or, have I not truly known my own heart all these years? Have I misinterpreted who I am or have I failed to delight in Him and my "punishment" is to be alone. It certainly feels like punishment recently. Anyone with any insights here, please chime in!